Letter to no one, he wouldn't reply if he could win a million bucks

I was just wondering how you were.  You used to be my best friend, so I guess I care.  Even if you did do some mean things, and even if I did some mean things - I still cared.   Luckily I have just celebrated my 6th month anniversary with Peter & it was pretty good, he's white too lol.  He already wants to marry me eventually, I said "HAHAHAHA..oh you're serious? Well maybe when I'm older & you're out of debt from school."  I kinda see things from your perspective a bit, he's a bit too enthusiastic but we get along better.     I sort of normalized, what you said to me woke me up.  I cried for months tbh, but it was needed & no tears were left (it wasn't about you, but more about what you said, like the hair and scars, & that I was a freak that you couldn't introduce to your family).  Haven't cut myself since though, so something good came out of it.   I'm even starting to sell centerpieces hand made & arranged by myself, they're pretty popular along with hand made cards & some random things I make.   I'm doing ok, eating meat again, have a slight tan, blonde hair, nicer skin, & way bigger muscles.  I bet I could take you down :p  Sanity is, different.  Remember though, butterflies not thunderbolts when it comes to relationships.  When you think about it, "love" needs to grow like caterpillars from eggs, & butterflies from caterpillars.  But just remember I loved you as a friend &liked you romantically.  You always seemed to get the two mixed up, & from time to time I think about you & wonder how you're doing; because I cared a lot for you.  I might be a bit mean, but only to people that I care about.  How far can I push a person til they're gone? Right?  If I push them and they stay then they're worth keeping. Heh, Peter is a great example.  The first couple of times I even contemplated breaking up with him he wouldn't let me, lmfao.  I guess I needed a nice white italian boy that cares a little too much too.                                                        Hope you're discovering your true identity - Me